Stuck in Muck
Ain’t no but
Eats more Carbs
(With apologies to Dr. Seuss.)
Yep. Despite all the good intentions, to-do lists, plans, goal-setting, and the need to move on in many ways, I’ve spent the past few weeks stuck down in a murky mire of ooze. It’s happened before, years ago, and usually preceded by a few bad choices. Let me correct that. This feeling is always preceded by a few horrible choices and the knowledge that I did this to me.
Sure, life happens and sends crap. Books have been written about that. And sure, many folks have had many worse challenges/problems/tragedies than what I’m mucking about in. While I don’t love this moment in time, I do love my life with EW on the boat.
I’m just not that thrilled with my action—or, more honestly, lack of action—right now.
Work In Progress Post 60
When I’m wallowing in brown self-inflicted goo, two phrases come to my mind, unbidden. The first is “I just want to go home.” Now, before all y’all non-boaters read more into that than you should, this phrase has popped into my head at certain moments since I was a teen, lying in my own charming attic bedroom. Clearly, “Going Home” is more about the home inside me than my physical surroundings.
(Now that’s a Deep Thought.)
This interpretation is boosted by the second pervasive phrase, “I can’t get out of my own way.” Which pretty much says it all.
I like me, I’m just not thrilled with my actions and effort of late. Thanks to Google, I know that I’m not alone. If one searches the term “Stuck in a rut”, thousands of links show up, from other people’s blogs to magazines, to Ted Talks. (It’s occurred to me that one could search pretty much anything on Google and find like-minded people. Validation may not always be a good thing.)
Looking for New Tools to Take Me from Stuck in Muck to Cruise in Blue
After a quick search, I have opted to use the three tips from this article from INC. Magazine and these lovely Ted Talks (plus some serious and positive self-talk) to get me moving again. The good news is that I’ve already reached the stage of remembering the last times I felt this way and how successfully everything turned out once I stopped getting in my own way. I’ve also read your comments from some of my past posts. This last year or two have been a struggle and I wished I’d dealt with it much sooner.
And yes, I do know that if I’d been doing all the things Lynnelle and I’ve been talking about, I wouldn’t be in a rut right now. My bad. While I’m still wallowing, let me once again stand up for the maligned millennials. There are few of us who have escaped moments when we have failed at Adulting. It’s a human thing, not a generational thing.
NOTE 1. At some point, I have to show progress, not just another article in which I am bitching.
NOTE 2. The muddy boots are Tevas, taken from their website.